Simultaneously, I had just completed my last class for undergrad and started the process of looking for my first full time professional job. I was pretty confident in my resume and my chances as a candidate. I was a graduate of a good and well known school. While there I did 2 internships where I worked in a company for 6 months full time out of the year. This would typically give me an advantage over other recent graduates who may not have as much experience or no experience at all. Besides that, I had held jobs consistently since I was 16 and had lots of work experience. I sent out hundreds of applications for positions that I was interested in but despite everything I never received a call back from any of them for even an interview. I began to wonder "What's going on here" and began to lose faith in myself and my marketability.
Months passed on and I continued to be convicted about being baptized. The Lord wasn't forcing me but it was something that remained on my mind. Finally in early December, I relented. Ok Lord, if this is something that you really want me to do, I'll do it even though I'm scared. I got baptized that December and I kid you not, the very next day phone calls started streaming in from potentional employers asking me to come in for an interview for their positions. It was at that time that I realized for the past 4 months, I had been blocking my blessing... a job.
My question to you is, are you blocking your own blessing? There is something that the Lord has asked you to do, you haven't done it for whatever reason (pride, hurt, fear) and you are now walking in disobedience. Every night you're praying to God for a blessing, a break through, to break chains, to deliver you. You're praying for that new job, that new car, you need a higher salary, that husband, that wife but it seems that no matter how hard you pray and/or fast, nothing is coming of it. See a lot of times our breakthrough isn't coming because we have not done what the Lord has asked us to do. God it a God of order. So instead of being mad at God for not answering your prayer perhaps we should take a moment to reflect on where we are in life and what is being asked of us. God is not a slave master. When I decided that I wasn't going to get baptized initially God was probably like "okay" and left it like that. However, since there is an order to things you can't expect to get to the next level until you have taken care of the assigned tasks on your current level.
We may have legitimate "reasons"/excuses of why we can't do what God is calling us to do. We have to remember though, that we never see what He sees... the whole picture. We only see the present, what is in front if us right now. Let's stop being stubborn headed and acting like we are the Creator. Humble yourself and do what God has asked, then watch Him work in your favor.
P.S: I know my blogs have been far and few in between later (usually a post a new one ever week). I've been occupied with a few projects so I decided to start posting once a month going forward. It's easier for me that way and less stress involved. If I feel particular inspired and write a whole bunch at once you may get 2 in a given month but definitely not more than that. Thanks for hanging in there with me.
xo Tasha
Attending the 2013 Unashamed Conference with some sisters in Christ
