So I meant to post this yesterday for Valentines Day but I forgot. A few months ago, one of my sisters in Christ who is a part of the Pinky Promise Movement felt it on her heart to share her love story with myself and others. I've gotten her permission to share it publicly on my blog and I hope you are as blessed by this as I was.
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In 2011 I was engaged to be married. I was so engaged that all I really had left was to pick up my already purchased wedding dress, make sure my wedding party of 26 was prepared to walk and ensure that my guests, who just received save-the-dates, would shortly receive the actual wedding invitation. The wedding was underway but the marriage didn't stand a chance. I found myself in a forever relationship with a longtime friend that was temporary.
I would be lying if I said something went wrong somewhere in the relationship and it was big surprise to me, but there were signs from the beginning that I ignored. I believed that our existing friendship, his feelings for me and our semi-similar future aspirations made for a perfect recipe for a marriage. I could not have been more wrong. I found myself having to make the HARDEST decision of my life, and called off my wedding just four months shy of “the day”.
Following this decision I carried a lot of shame, felt completely alone, isolated and very unsure of my ability to love and be loved again. I went through a period of fasting and prayer, to dating some people (it just didn't feel right) and then back to fasting again. I knew I had to let God take control of this and every other area in my life but I was just trying to be “helpful” and share the burden of finding my one day husband with God.
I had even contemplated online dating thinking that it could be one way to be found. I decided that by 11:59 pm on December 31st 2013, if God had NOT told me to NOT go online, I would create an online dating profile. So I didn't get a call, text, FaceTime or anything from God saying no and decided that was my green light to create a profile. So long story short, the online profile was deactivated 1 hour after it was created. I’ll never get that hour of my life back. I then throw up my hands and said “God, it’s seriously in your hands now, I surrender ALL to you”.
That’s honestly what I did. I came back home after a great break with family with a plan to put God first and totally get comfortable spending time with God and God alone. I fasted, read my word and I was happy to be in constant communication with my Maker.
Out of nowhere on a random Thursday in late January, this young man I once knew from my old job in a local mall reached out to me on Facebook just to say "hi". After a few messages, we made plans to meet up for brunch. I was not thinking anything of it because he was younger than me and I had created a crazy rule stating I would not date younger men (Note: the devil can be in the details/barriers we put up). He said food and I said YES (I like food; no judgment). I was not aware at that point that God had His hands all over this brunch and hasn't once let go of us since. Ten months later, I am the happiest girlfriend on earth and excited to be with my "Snug".
I share this story because, although I have received divine confirmation about my relationship numerous times, I recently became overcome with joy knowing God loved me so much, He sent me my boyfriend in such a way that I KNOW it was Him and not me or my Snug. This revelation also made me realize the error of my dating ways of the past.
After watching a video on YouTube by Touré Roberts entitled “5 Keys to Identifying Your Soulmate”, it made me grin from ear to ear. Each point that was discussed spoke directly to my current relationship. I want to share this with you because what the video also made me realize is that often times people hear a word from a friend, in church, a YouTube video or the Bible that convicts them about their current situation and they do nothing about it. Many times people do not allow themselves to succumb to the come-to-Jesus moments that has been delivered to them through these outlets by the Most High.
I encourage you to watch the video at https://www.youtube.com/
Let’s surrender everything to God and watch Hm do the miraculous!
Need encouragement? Read and mediate on the following scriptures:
Surrender your life to Christ: Luke 9:23
God has your back: Jeremiah 29:11
Life changing scripture: 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Can't beat God giving: Ephesians 3:20-21
For those fighting the call to RUN: Philippians 3:13-14
Love you,
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I hope you had an amazing day yesterday whether it was as a single person or a married person. Remember true happiness and contentment is found only in Christ, no human can give you what you are looking for, no human can fill that void. If you find yourself sulking, sad, "hating" or even being bitter on Valentines Day, you should probably put yourself in a timeout and go get your heart mended by God. That's an indicator that you are not completely healed from...whatever, thus you are not made whole. You don't want to meet your "Adam" or enter a relationship being any less than a whole person. You'll bring those issue right into a relationship with you.
I hope you had an amazing day yesterday whether it was as a single person or a married person. Remember true happiness and contentment is found only in Christ, no human can give you what you are looking for, no human can fill that void. If you find yourself sulking, sad, "hating" or even being bitter on Valentines Day, you should probably put yourself in a timeout and go get your heart mended by God. That's an indicator that you are not completely healed from...whatever, thus you are not made whole. You don't want to meet your "Adam" or enter a relationship being any less than a whole person. You'll bring those issue right into a relationship with you.
I know I missed doing a January post, I was bring lazy. I hope y'all had a great couple of months. I will return I couple of weeks with a new blog post!
xo
Tasha
