Reflecting and Perspective

Original Post: January 2013

I’ve been sitting in my warm bed for a while now just reflecting on 2012 since the year has officially passed. Thinking about what was going on through my mind this time last year and my plans for the year. I had particular goals:

1. I wanted to apply and get into grad school: I applied and was officially accepted in to a Masters program in March. Praise God!

2. I wanted to get braces to fix my teeth. Although they weren’t awful to begin with, I was self conscious about my smile and wanted to get them fixed. I sacrificed, and budgeted and ended up getting my braces the 3rd week of January. They were removed in July and I’m so happy. It was a painful process but worth it.

3. I wanted to get on vitamins, have a healthier diet and work out. The vitamin thing worked out really well. I found this amazing vitamin that is 100% natural and does wonders to my body. Unfortunately I didn’t keep up the good eating habit and work out routine for the year but I can always pick up where I left off.

4. I had an intense desire to read the entire Bible for 1 year. I thought about this before all my life, would try and they fall off by the 3rd week of January. However, this time around I was desperate for God and elevation so I enrolled in a Bible plan. As off yesterday morning I have officially read the entire Bible! So exciting.

As I look back on the year, it’s been a bit of a world wind. There were a lot of happy times when things and life was just perfect, everything glimmered and life was just awesome. I also had times of conflict and tears. There were moments when I felt attacked by others for my commitment to God and my beliefs. That made me angry but mostly hurt. I had disagreements and misunderstandings with family members which also made me mad and hurt. I don’t like drama, I try to stay away from it. And of course when people are mad, they do things in the moment that really hurt. They may not have meant to hurt me, but they did. Now I have to work through that hurt.

The biggest thing is that this past summer I fell SO hard in my Christian walk…like SO hard. It was…shocking and humbling to me. I couldn’t understand how things could get so out of control in a year that I was supposed to be elevating. I mean, what’s going on God? I got to a point where I was so guilty of falling and not being perfect anymore that I didn’t want to pray or talk to God about it, I just wanted to condemn myself. I was in bondage for weeks! Thank God for mercy that He brought me through. Through the tears, guilt and all He was there with open arms. Looking back now, I realized that this fall HAD to happen. It is a part of my walk, a part of my journey and there were things that God needed me to learn about myself. I emerged from that season on a higher spiritual level. I’m grateful and thankful.

Now 2013 is here. The year of CREATION! Even though the year of Elevation (2012) has come to an end, my goal is to elevate for the rest of my life.

1. I want to read the entire Bible again. This time 4 times by the end of 2013

2. Eat better overall and incorporate a steady work out routine into my life.

3. Finish my masters degree

4. Continue to seek God for my purpose in life

2013 is going to be great. I speak it over my life even know. This doesn’t mean that there won’t be ups and downs, that I won’t have conflicts, that I won’t cry, I expect all of those things to happen. I know that everything God allows to happen in and through me is meant for my good….and that is GREAT!

Happy New Year everyone =)
**Tasha**